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NVSN Journal Entry No. 18

April 24, 2018

Sometimes I wonder why I stress so easily. I have always had general stress but recently I’ve noticed it getting worse. The stress leads to panic and panic leads to disaster and bad outcomes , which results in more stress and worry. Once an episode passes I always think “I will handle it better next time and stay calm”. But next time comes around and the same situation happens again. Increased heart rate, sweating, forgetting important thoughts. Another bombed exam. How does this happen? I work and study so hard for it all to go down the drain in the span of a 1 hour test. It feels like the end of the world. It feels like I’ll never be successful. It feels like I am always messing up. I don’t want to be a victim of my stress anymore. It’s hard to keep positive thoughts in my head but for now I try to tell myself that through all these low points I tried my best. If I put in my best effort, I can’t help if my stress and anxiety gets the best of me. That is a hurdle of life and at least I know I put in my best effort. The goal now is not to be stuck on past failures and missteps, but rather accept the outcome and move forward. At least that’s what I tell myself and it’s a work in progress for now

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  • NVSN

    Apr 24, 2018

    Dear contributor,

    Thank you so much for sharing this with the NVSN community. It’s often difficult to give yourself credit for things that may not seem like a big deal, but we feel it’s important you understand how encouraging it is that you know yourself this well. You’re aware of your stress, you’re aware of its outcomes and you’re aware of how you plan to move forward with it. That’s a step that many struggle with and it’s great that you know where you stand.

    Your approach of acceptance is really admirable. It’s a really positive attitude for dealing with stress related to school, work and other things on our personal journeys. However, it’s also important to strive for balance. Hobbies, spending time with loved ones and “me-time” are very helpful ways to find a sense of peace – especially during a times of distress. We urge you to search for that peace and don’t stop searching. Today it could be photography, tomorrow it could be Netflix and the next day it could be learning to play the piano. Never stop searching for that peace because you deserve it.

    Thank you once again for your bravery, thank you for your positivity and most importantly, thank you for being you.

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