NVSN Journal


NVSN Journal Entry No. 15

November 15, 2017

Deep thoughts in my head Keeping me up from going to bed And deep thoughts from resting my head Often wondering if I'll wake up or suffocate instead People hurt me not understanding I've been hurt before It's like trying to open a wound that never healed and never closed The sadness is with the ones who are dead Over 60 ppl who were more than a friend The sadness is with the ones who beat me, cheat me and lied instead The sadness is with me I walk around smiling just knowing how much I'm dying inside The only...


NVSN Journal Entry No. 14

November 01, 2017

They say my brain is sticky That if I take this med it'll help uplift me 24/7 a bad nightmare you stay in my head, You fill me with doubt, distress and dread Bombarded with emotions I can't get out of bed, It's a constant switch between the two states of mind It's like there's another me that I go back and forth from Combined; With the real me that's kinda sidelined Put on the backburner and declined This built up fear in me I'm confined To these imaginary walls I built, I need to remind, Myself That its not...


NVSN Journal Entry No. 13

May 02, 2017

I have probably stared at this journal entry section for 10mins… Debating on whether or not should I write something. A part of me does, badly.  The other part is scared. I have never done something like this before. I know there is something wrong with me. I think I have also known there is something about me not normal. I may have not understood it while I was younger, but now that I am older, I am more aware. I am more in tuned I guess you could say. When I am alone I get sad. For no reason....


NVSN Journal Entry No. 12

April 25, 2017

I remember the day it all happened. The day my entire world flipped upside down. Last summer was a summer to remember. Who knew so much could happen in 4 months. After years of being insecure, I accepted my flaws and became who I wanted to be. I thought I was invincible. That I finally love myself and that nothing- absolutely nothing can take that away from me. But I was wrong. I lost my best friend. The friend who I depended on as my other half- my soul mate. She had her own stuff going on- but she had...


NVSN Journal Entry No. 11

April 15, 2017

“I’m ready” Switching from Health Sci to Ivey? No biggie. Everyone else could do it so why couldn’t I? If I could sit through a 3-hour lecture on health ethics I could for sure find a way to survive, right? “Just Kidding” Yeah, just kidding. Ivey was me learning completely different content in a completely different learning style. I was lucky to have an amazing support system in my friends, section and family, but some days you just feel alone. Like everyone is a million times smarter than you, like you have no time to do the things you actually...